*I would have been much more satisfied with my post from yesterday if the meme I included wasn't quite so serious, particularly because my arms aren't exactly empty, which I am thankful for every day. ...I need to learn how to create my own ecard memes, including one with a geriatric uterus. ;)
I'm feeling much more positive since coming to the above realization within minutes (maybe even seconds) of publishing my birthday post. Yesterday, I felt the meme was not as reflective of my mood as I had intended but it was all I could find in my online search. Sure, I was feeling down about another birthday and another reminder my biological clock is constantly ticking downward, but that particular ecard felt more negative than I actually felt.
*My hubby and I are in the process of finalizing our plans for building our new home. I've been so happy and excited about the reality of this that I'm pretty sure I've been in denial (or something) about how much it is really going to cost us and how thin it is going to stretch our budget. I've had some serious thoughts today about whether we can actually afford this house and another FET and another baby (hopefully) all at the same time. It scares me to admit that we really can't afford it all. So I've been mulling over the idea of postponing our FET until the spring. That would give us more time before our next baby is born (God willing) and less time paying for three kids at the same time in daycare (or with a nanny). Which would help our budget tremendously. If we were to have three kids in daycare at the same time, it would cost us around $3K a month! Who can afford that?!?! I mean, we could afford it if we didn't have other expenses like say a mortgage. But it's not exactly realistic for someone in my age group - who has had to fork out a sh!t ton of cash to have kids - to have their mortgage paid off already. (Although, to be fair, if we weren't moving and we didn't have any kids, we could easily have had it paid off this year. But I'd much rather have my kids than be mortgage free; I wouldn't trade them for anything!)
So, as much as it pains me, I'm thinking about throwing out the idea to my hubby tonight of postponing our FET. I think it will be good to at least talk about it but my fear is if we do decide to wait a few more months (like 6 months because I absolutely do not want to give birth in the winter) that it will be postponed for good. Wish me luck!
I'm feeling much more positive since coming to the above realization within minutes (maybe even seconds) of publishing my birthday post. Yesterday, I felt the meme was not as reflective of my mood as I had intended but it was all I could find in my online search. Sure, I was feeling down about another birthday and another reminder my biological clock is constantly ticking downward, but that particular ecard felt more negative than I actually felt.
*My hubby and I are in the process of finalizing our plans for building our new home. I've been so happy and excited about the reality of this that I'm pretty sure I've been in denial (or something) about how much it is really going to cost us and how thin it is going to stretch our budget. I've had some serious thoughts today about whether we can actually afford this house and another FET and another baby (hopefully) all at the same time. It scares me to admit that we really can't afford it all. So I've been mulling over the idea of postponing our FET until the spring. That would give us more time before our next baby is born (God willing) and less time paying for three kids at the same time in daycare (or with a nanny). Which would help our budget tremendously. If we were to have three kids in daycare at the same time, it would cost us around $3K a month! Who can afford that?!?! I mean, we could afford it if we didn't have other expenses like say a mortgage. But it's not exactly realistic for someone in my age group - who has had to fork out a sh!t ton of cash to have kids - to have their mortgage paid off already. (Although, to be fair, if we weren't moving and we didn't have any kids, we could easily have had it paid off this year. But I'd much rather have my kids than be mortgage free; I wouldn't trade them for anything!)
So, as much as it pains me, I'm thinking about throwing out the idea to my hubby tonight of postponing our FET. I think it will be good to at least talk about it but my fear is if we do decide to wait a few more months (like 6 months because I absolutely do not want to give birth in the winter) that it will be postponed for good. Wish me luck!
